Benevolence towards one and all!:P

I have been wondering since looooooooooong...long means few days...n looooooooooong means yr....yeah??:PBut whaat...hehe...i have been wondering since long over some questions...(luks as if i hv turned "badi")!:P N i found that most of the times what I do is not what I really wanna do!I am sorta driven by people around me...n the issue being ethics! I havta smile although i am filled with repugnance...I have tobe with people in whatever way it may b...n again ethics!(The underlying fact being that although i care and help people...not because i care for them...but (well i have realised i dont care for many;))because it is a part of our "should be" behaviour!I cant shout at somebody...not because m afraid but because its not supposed to be a "nice kinda" behaviour!Have to at prissy always....whatever the situation may be!I can really write a book on ethics...hehe:PShow no pretence...fake things come off easily...anger should always be undercontrol...sorry and thanx should always flow eloquently...ego problemsshould be kept aside...walk another mile if your friend says so...lies shud b minimum as possible...care for those who love ya...Brickbats r really really out of the way!Backbiting should be a "no no"!Forget any tragic thing because of someone...as mistakes do happen...try to bother nebody only wen its really really urgent!N blah blah...hehe
Have been a lot goodie goodie type uptil now!sigh!:P
(Dunno if nebdy awards any grades!;))
Its not that i am a crazy woman or so...19 yrs almost "normal" gal......hehe ...but ponder over the thing...whether i am turning into a a philanthrope in preparation!hehe!
N also not that i have started "hating this world " ...hehe...or something like..."This world is full of demons and bitches"...hehe:P:P
But m really really desperate to turn into a bitch...pretentious and a big big snob!;):P